Cry Baby: Full Moon & Transiting South Node in Cancer

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Johnny depp cry babyI was very emotional and cried a lot last night. I didn’t go out and party, I decided to stay home and reflect on the past year and set intentions for the New Year. By midnight I felt overwhelmed by hurt feelings and self-pity, but combined with the desire to do something about them. I think I dove headfirst into the transiting South Node in Cancer. If the South Node is a place we should be moving away from, then the South Node in Cancer shows that we should be moving away from childish emotional displays and toward maturity (Capricorn North Node). But that’s not what I did. I totally embraced emotional waters and it’s not surprising since the Lunar Eclipse at 11 Cancer conjoined my natal Mars at 10 Cancer, both squaring natal Pluto at 10 Libra.

This type of behavior and emotional response is the opposite of what I ‘should’ be doing right now with the pile-up of planets in Capricorn (Pluto, Venus, Sun, Mercury and North Node), and with the upcoming New Moon in Capricorn on the 15th. Then there’s also the tightening square between Saturn and Pluto, which certainly doesn’t encourage self-indulgent cry fests.

Though, as I think about my actions last night, I think that maybe that was my last good cry of the year. Maybe I had to get it out my system to get on with the ‘business’ (good Cappie word) of 2010. Maybe I had to let those feelings out so I can move past them. Perhaps the Full Moon in Cancer on New Year’s Eve signaled that I should do exactly that- indulge in emotion one last time to prepare for the tough year ahead.

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  • billow

    I like a big cathartic cry to clear things.  Better than letting it out as a slow nauseating whine.  I hate that sound.  It gives me back pain. 

  • billow

    I like a big cathartic cry to clear things.  Better than letting it out as a slow nauseating whine.  I hate that sound.  It gives me back pain. 

    • Michelle

      It usually does make me feel better. Strangely, the crying itself hurts a little.

  • Last night (new year’s eve – Full Moon in Cancer) was the strangest night! I too have a Leo moon, but lately have been very steady emotionally. But we had a big upset in the family and I became very pissed, hurt, upset, etc. I was happy to have the moon ingress into Leo today, but I’m still feeling a little weird from it all. The full moon last night was very close to Jupiter’s heliocentric nodes (10 Cancer) and the Moon’s south node is close to Pluto’s heliocentric North Node (20 Cancer). That might have something to do with the power of that Full Moon.

    • Interesting, I’m not familiar with heliocentric nodes. I’m still feeling weird too. I had my Lunar Return last night (New Year’s Day night) but I felt too out of sorts to write about it- I actually ‘accidentally’ deleted it.Thank you for reading my blog Nancy 😀

  • Wow, actually, late last night I started getting really overwhelmed with these awful self-abusive thoughts, and then this morning I full-on sobbed for the first time in what I think is months. I don’t really know exactly why. It SUCKED, though, and I feel like I kind of hate EVERYONE. When you’ve thought through something and tried to tell yourself that you can work around it, that doesn’t necessarily mean that it won’t still upset the hell out of you. Not to mention that I’m semi-superstitious and am kind of afraid that now my entire year will suck because I cried all day. I don’t even have any black-eyed peas or anything.

    • that doesn’t necessarily mean that it won’t still upset the hell out of youExactly, and I think it’s the perfect time to go ahead and cry and let yourself admit how upset you are.Not to mention that I’m semi-superstitious and am kind of afraid that now my entire year will suck because I cried all dayYou and me both! I hope this isn’t the year of me being a big cry baby.I don’t even have any black-eyed peas or anything.Are black-eyed peas good luck?Thanks for stopping by and commenting, Lucy 😀

      • In the South, eating black-eyed peas on New Year’s Day will bring good luck for the rest of the year. It’s a very long-standing superstition. There’s apparently also one that says the first person to come into your house after midnight should be a tall dark-haired man carrying a gift of some kind, and another one that says you’re not supposed to take anything out of your house at all, not even garbage, on New Year’s Day. This is why I’m only semi-superstitious, because a) any more and I’d be clinically OCD, and b) I seriously don’t have time for that shit.

        God, I’m so glad it wasn’t just me getting channeling Morrissey this entire time! I felt like a complete loser.

        • Christine

          God, I’m so glad it wasn’t just me getting channeling Morrissey this entire time! I felt like a complete loser.

          lol, Been there. Favorite Morrissey song to loathe myself to: Seasick, yet still docked.

  • Christine

    I’ve been feeling pretty overwhelmed by my emotions. Last night, I took a bus back to L.A. (from Phoenix), and was pretty sad about going back home. I bawled like a baby before leaving, and cried sporadically on the six hour drive home. I’ve been feeling pretty paralyzed by sensitivity. Recently, there seems to be very little that *doesn’t* make me cry. And sometimes I feel like I cry for no reason at all! I thought a lot about my relationship and the kind of life I was returning to in Los Angeles. I did think about moving beyond emotional immaturity (but I think about this all the time, with an afflicted Leo Moon and a Leo Moon that loosely conjoins my SN). It’s very hard for me to find the balance between expressing my immediate feelings and betraying them. On the bus, I decided I would look into therapy. I have an astrology consultation Tuesday afternoon, and I am hoping for some good news. I know exactly the kind of person I am when I’m happy, and I just want to make those steps to feel happier. I have a ton of outer planets in Capricorn, and Jupiter in Cancer — I’ll check those things out in a bit.

    I think that if you have to cry, you really just should. I just want to stop doing things and “taking” things, at the expense of my feelings. F-that. What if last night was just foreshadowing the new year’s events? Do you think this is going to be a recurring thing? Perhaps you’re going to have to go through catharses, similar to the one you had last night, before you can begin new projects this year. Whatever it is, I’m trying to learn how to healthily address my natural feelings, so I think it’s perfectly OK to cry — and cry a lot.

    • Recently, there seems to be very little that *doesn’t* make me cry.
      I feel the same way. I’ve been really sensitive and getting all choked up every time I talk on the phone.

      I think I struggle with the same problem of not demonstrating emotions enough (I have Moon in Leo conjunct Mars in Cancer and from what I remember you have Moon in Leo opposing Saturn- in Aquarius?) But then, when I do, I can be overly dramatic about it- I do have a square from Uranus and Jupiter to my Moon, along with the conjunction to Saturn. My emotional expression swings from not enough to too much.

      I think it’s perfectly OK to cry
      I think it’s OK too, but part of me still thinks I’m being a baby (Mars & Saturn in Cancer, and the squaring Aries planets).

      • Christine

        I have Saturn in Capricorn.

        I can be overly dramatic about it.

        I feel you, girlie. I recently read somewhere that Leo Moons are prone to sulking. Don’t you wish you had some traits from Sagittarius that makes you a little more easy going? I sure do! I wish I could just blow up, be over it, and be cheerful again. I hate, hate, hate fixed Leo Moon so much. I just take myself SO seriously when I’m slighted, and I’m SO quick to jump to dramatic decisions. I have no idea how to calm down for the time being. When I’m upset, I feel like my needs are pretty basic. It’s like the entire world needs to revolve around me for a whole minute, or I will continue to sulk until it does.

        How do the people close to you feel about your emotional expressions? Do the squares from Uranus and Jupiter make it hard for them to predict how things will make you feel? What do you feel you need from them when you’re upset?

        • lmao! I could’ve written that entire paragraph. I’m going to show it to my boyfriend- especially the part about jumping to dramatic conclusions, lol. :/

          What do you feel you need from them when you’re upset?
          I need understanding and to be told that it’s going to be OK. Then I need to find some corner where I can go sulk by myself and preserve my dignity.

      • I meant that I have Moon in Leo conjunct Saturn in Cancer, not conjunct Mars in Cancer.