I wanted to be a spy. I grew up on property bordered by a cemetery, railroad tracks, a meadow and a brook. I put on lip gloss, a pink beret and feigned an accent as my step brother and I looked for dead bodies and organs in the water. I’d pull out slime covered burnt orange rocks and call them hearts. In kindergarten a fireman came to visit. The teacher asked us what we wanted to be when we grew up. I said I wanted to be a ballerina.
I wanted to be a writer. I wrote a story in third grade and it won an award. I said my friend wrote it. I said I only did the drawings. Later I convinced myself I wasn’t clever enough to be a writer.
Venus in Scorpio and Libra- Retrograde Dates
- Retrograde at 13 Scorpio 14′ on Friday, October 8th.
- Retrogrades into 00 Libra on Sunday, November 7th.
- Direct at 27 Libra 40′ on Thursday, November 18th.
- Reenters 00 Scorpio on Monday, November 29th.
If you have planets between 27 Libra and 13 Scorpio you will feel this retrograde. If Venus is your chart ruler you’ll be affected. And, if you have planets between 27 and 13 of Aries/Taurus, Cancer/Leo or Capricorn/Aquarius you’ll feel it.
I Don’t Need Permission
Transiting Venus will cross my North Node at 12 Scorpio 45′ three times this fall. They are making their first conjunction right now.
Last year I had a powerful dream. I met one of my guides. He looked similar to Jaye Davidson from the movie Stargate.
He wanted to underscore something:
I don’t need permission
I tried to deny that I look for approval, but his look said, “Don’t bother,” and I knew he was right.
Venus rules my natal South Node in Taurus. Scorpio is the sign of my North Node. Libra is the sign on my 2nd house, and Pluto sits in the 2nd house.
During this Venus retrograde I’ll retrace why I denied what I wanted and question how I let my need to please dominate my choices.