October 25, 2009
’m sure that transiting Pluto square my natal Venus in Aries on the 7-8 cusp, at the Aries Point, has something to do with this, but I’m becoming aware of how much unconscious competition I attract, and engage in, from/with other women. I attract competitive women, women want to compete with me, and without fully realizing it, I want to compete with them too.
What I usually do is ignore this energy, and be submissive. I let them ‘win’. I don’t fight or argue, I compromise and/or try to make myself invisible, sometimes for the sake of friendship. Another thing that I do is actively dress-down to minimize jealousy/envy issues. The crazy thing is that lately I find myself getting jealous and envious of just about every woman I see. I can’t deal with my own energy- I have no idea what to do with it. I feel like I need to apologize and say, “I’m sorry for shooting laser beams through your head with my eyes, transiting Pluto is squaring my natal Venus, and suddenly, I think you’re a threat.”