Taurus South Node in 9H:
- Desire for career in fine art, unprecedented in family
- Oil Painting degree
- Art model
- Director of art school
- Seen as an artistic type (Venus, dispositor of Taurus, at the Aries Point in 7H)
- Understand abstract concepts that have no relevance to everyday life
How annoying. When I decided to major in art, I had within me the sense that understanding art was important. I felt that if I did not have a solid appreciation of art, my life would be incomplete- I would not achieve what I wanted to achieve in life and I would not be accepted by those people whom I perceived as my peers. Yet, when I completed my degree, I felt that I had just worked very hard for something virtually worthless, and today, I feel like I want nothing to do with an artistic career at all anymore. My degree feels like a hollow, meaningless victory.
Maybe by pursuing a degree in the field of my South Node I filled some need to reconnect with a past self, but, in doing so, I did nothing to improve my life this time around. The further I get into art, the more estranged I feel from my life path. Explaining why I don’t want to paint as a career makes my throat tighten- I just don’t want to do it anymore.
In the Tarot, the 8 of Cups signifies abandonment– it’s letting go emotionally of a situation that no longer captivates one’s heart. There is no further benefit from putting one’s heart into a particular situation. The South Node path makes me feel unsatisfied, and that my efforts are futile, so I’m walking away from it. The 8 of Cups accurately portrays how I feel about my South Node at this time.